"DECREE OF DIVORCE GRANTED TO PLAINTIFF. COURT COSTS TO BE SPLIT BETWEEN BOTH PARTIES."
Lump in my throat. Single tears find their way from my eyes to my chin. Sobs drum against my chest, above my very heart. Back and forth shakes my head in denial.
My mind knew it was coming.
My heart held out hope that they'd find each other again, find that the proceedings were all a mistake. There is love, deep down. Life crusts over truth. Emotions lie. Fear manipulates. Selfishness destroys.
Outside a storm brews, gusts shake the window. Tom and the girls sand cabinets. College enriches Joe at this hour. Ben sets up his new photography studio. Sammy sleeps, dreams, in his dog bed.
And here I sit, weeping, frustrated at the dark side of this world, just so very very heartbroken..............sad.
Fierce clicking of hail against the sill interrupts, entices a tiny smile. Blasts of wind clear my head.
Suddenly, clarity reveals anew the depth of my love for Tom and my children. Heavy sadness lifts fresh determination from my mind and heart, planting it squarely before me, within me. We must skillfully battle the evil that would destroy. It must never ever know victory over our sacred union.
To completely experience this sadness, for my loved ones, is a conscious choice this moment. The passing of a once good marriage, like death, deserves a tender, sorrowful, heart funeral.