Since I've begun using social media - and I only use Facebook with less than one hundred 'friends' - I notice I have become duller in my thinking, in my creativity, in my mental clarity.
Lazy-brained.
This information was discovered just now as I searched my five blogs for a certain post, which I never did find. In wondering why that particular post was so hard to find, I tallied up my post count. Over one thousand posts since 2006.
What? Over one thousand posts? I let that sink it for a bit. How in the world did I do that?
Sure, many people have created more posts than I.
But did they post them while home schooling four children?
While being Highly Sensitive People, easily overwhelmed?
While being married for decades to a husband with Low-Spectrum Autism?
While doing home additions, planning weddings and funerals, gardening, making meals, cleaning house, running an online business, doing the family finances, learning two foreign languages, planning extensive overseas vacations, and otherwise just being the Girl Friday to a family of six and then eight?
Well, maybe they did.
But I am stunned that I have written each post. And they are good posts, writings that inspire and encourage and challenge me still today.
This is an unedited post, written quickly for the purpose of marking what I hope will be a turning point, a point at which I turn back to operating with a clear mind rather than one dulled by social media, which frankly has done me very little good and a whole lot of harm.
I do love my friends, though.
When they come to my Facebook page.
And engage.
But I'm not going to wait there so pathetically anymore.
I miss creativity. I am sad that my post count has drastically waned.
I am happy, however, to have this rope thrown to me to, pulling my stuck mind from the mental quicksand of Facebook.
On with life!
Wednesday, March 27, 2019
Monday, March 04, 2019
Tea and Me
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Piccadilly Tea, Whittard of Chelsea |
I do love tea, but not all flavors.
Some, like Piccadilly, excite and soothe me both at once. Intoxicating aroma when dry, delicious flavor when properly steeped, a bit of cream for me, please and thank you.
Some teas disappoint.
Upon learning that most teas come from the same type of leaf my mind begins to churn. Compare the fact that certain tea leaves are the starting point for most varieties of tea with the idea of human beings beginning as babies who grow into adults. While it's the picking, planting, and processing of tea which bring about varied results, it's in the childhood, chances, and choices where differences in adults are determined.
Okay, maybe in my alliterative attempt I have restricted the analogy. In any case, you are clever enough to flesh out the comparison.
Just as there are tea flavors I adore, and a few I dislike, there are people who bless my life and some who don't. Why the difference?
The difference is partly because of who I have become, and also partly who others choose to be. Not every tea complements every palate, not every person smoothly rubs along with every individual.
In tea - as well as in people - vive la différence!
If the little shrub can be knowledgeably planted, its leaves picked at the exact right moment in order to be thoughtfully processed to create the perfect cup of tea, cannot we likewise curate our lives with integrity in order to form the best possible version of ourselves? Can we not at least try?
I think this idea merits a good amount of steeping, don't you?
Let's take a little tea break, shall we, and mull over the notion that each of us plays a part in who we become, for better or worse. We cannot forever blame our parents, our childhoods, or the unlucky events that came our way for the less than ideal aspects of our lives. That being said, there are certain cards we are dealt that we must simply play. We understand this.
However, within our constraints each of us possesses power, space, and freedom to create. What exhilarates me is realizing that no matter where we find ourselves in this moment - right now - for the most part we don't have to accept what doesn't please us. The choice is ours. We are free to keep doing what we've always done, or change our course a little or a lot. With intentional cognizance we can determine what sort of man or woman we'd like to present to the world, who we'd like to be, how we'd like to move through our lives, what contributions we'd like to make, what experiences might enrich us, and what we'd like to receive from these endeavors. A little tweak here, a little discarding there, and the ever-embracing of the new and intriguing can enliven us not only in the day-to-day but in the long run.
Mixing things up a bit, aiming at a definite goal, taking control and responsibility for the outcomes of our effort can be quite enjoyable and most satisfying. At the very least, we will learn about ourselves, others, and the world around us.
It's all about self-examination.
And courage.
"I believe that happiness comes from looking around us and finding the good and the beautiful." ~~ Letitia Baldrige
Thursday, February 28, 2019
Lessons from a Storm
One simple cluster rose bush
Hibernating
Yet, aha!
Tiny red buds
Life!
Contrast
Dark Fence
Light white snow
Dark branches
Light gray clouds
Happiness
Fear
Hope
Discouragement
Understanding
Bewilderment
Joy!
Perception in opposites
Supporting the whole
Trains
Relieves tedium
Forces new vision
Strengthens
Enriches
Clarifies
Wisdom!
In solitude
And cycles
Life reveals
The already known
Growth persists beneath
Inside
Tenaciously
Dependably
Security!
Truth
In nature
Soothes
Gratitude!
Thursday, February 21, 2019
Not of a Kind
Funny thing about Sparky,
Sparky stays the same size.
Always.
Sparky remains immature.
Sparky survives.
Barely.
Sparky cannot reach his little shoots
Out toward the sun or receive fresh rain.
Sparky prefers the status quo.
And for Sparky that's okay.
It's all he is capable of being or doing.
Sometimes Sparky grows reactive in anger
When expectations are not met.
Clenching fists and fits
Flibbertigibbet
Sparks, but no fire.
Ever.
Sparky is content to
Merely exist
In self-imposed restriction.
It is safe there,
Insular,
Doesn't take much work,
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Just living is not enough...one must have sunshine,
freedom, and a little flower.
Hans Christian Andersen
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Or self-examination.
Sparky baffles his world.
Most people do not really want freedom, because freedom involves responsibility, and most people are frightened of responsibility. Sigmund FreudBut Jasmine,
Darling sensuous Jasmine,
Captures air, soil, and water,
Dares, stretches, thrives,
Vibrates with vitality.
Jasmine expands and curls
Supple, dark green tendrils around Her trellis.
She reaches toward the sky,
Spreads wide and tall,
Roots deep and vigorous,
Leaves nourished in sunlight.
Jasmine bursts forth with
Blossom upon white blossom.
Delicate Beauty,
Delicious fragrance carried on the breeze,
Available to all.
Jasmine thrills at life,
Energized by possibility,
Courageous and wise,
Tenacious in hope.
Explores, enjoys, understands.
Jasmine grows.
Jasmine matures.
Jasmine enriches her World.
The secret to happiness is freedom...and the secret to freedom is courage. ~ Thucydides
Wednesday, January 23, 2019
"Only Bad Writers Think That Their Work is Really Good"
You know how, after eating a lousy meal, you feel remorse so strongly that you do something about it? Right away? You make a flavor-rich meal in your home kitchen, or you return to a trusted restaurant knowing your taste buds will be expertly stroked instead of murdered. The bad taste is removed, the high ground restored.
In the same way, reading bad writing can send a person reaching for a sure antidote in fine literature perhaps authored by a curmudgeonly broken angel or divinely-gifted human. Savoring the creation of a wordsmith genius replaces involuntary shuddering with magnificent profundity or delicious bliss or both or more.
In each case, a world is righted.
There are many ways to be poisoned.
Keep antidotes nearby.
In the same way, reading bad writing can send a person reaching for a sure antidote in fine literature perhaps authored by a curmudgeonly broken angel or divinely-gifted human. Savoring the creation of a wordsmith genius replaces involuntary shuddering with magnificent profundity or delicious bliss or both or more.
In each case, a world is righted.
There are many ways to be poisoned.
Keep antidotes nearby.
Wednesday, January 09, 2019
Here When I Need You
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Me, journaling in an olive grove in northern Italy, 2017 |
I am a good writer. Why this continually surprises me, I do not know, but it does.
My words set me aright, comfort me, inspire and encourage me.
I don't know if my writing helps anyone else, but I do know it is there for me when I need it, like a trusted friend who completely understands and knows just what to say.
It's a rather remarkable thing when your own creation stuns you.
Gertrude: Copied and Pasted
“The one thing that everybody wants is to be free...not to be managed, threatened, directed, restrained, obliged, fearful, administered, they want none of these things they all want to feel free, the word discipline, and forbidden and investigated and imprisoned brings horror and fear into all hearts, they do not want to be afraid not more than is necessary in the ordinary business of living where one has to earn one's living and has to fear want and disease and death....The only thing that any one wants now is to be free, to be let alone, to live their life as they can, but not to be watched, controlled and scared, no no, not.
~ September, 1943”
― Gertrude Stein
Thursday, December 06, 2018
Be Merry in True Christmas Spirit
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La Vierge au Lys & Pieta, by William-Adolph Bouguereau |
Wednesday, October 17, 2018
Not Ready to Be Old and Sensible Just Yet

I arrived at the grocery store only to find it populated by short-cropped-gray-haired ladies in long-sleeved flannel shirts and those Michelin-man vests or L.L. Bean chore coats, jeans, and - get this - hiking boots! Their men were dressed the same. They looked very autumnal.

Sure we all passed a giant pile of pumpkins by the front door of the store and stands of yellow, purple, and magenta mums, but other than that, it felt like a cool summer day, cloudless blue sky and all.
What the heck?
I have to confess, I was chuckling all through the aisles as I spotted more and more of these frost-triggered stalwarts. They were all constricted-looking, hunched over shopping lists, tense as if a snow storm was only minutes away and they'd better stock up and get back home!
I thought to myself, "Oh dear, I don't like this one bit. I cannot allow myself to be a part of this group. It might rub off!" I shop in the early afternoon now and will continue to until I feel compelled to wear autumnal attire, too.
Friday, September 28, 2018
And Yet . . .

The overwhelming sensation of a broken world devouring itself.
I slump.
I weep.
I feel like I'm drowning.
And, yet, the sun shines...
. . . squirrels scamper . . .
. . . birds flit and chirp . . .
. . . flowers bloom and leaves change color drifting lazily to the ground.
My children suffer today. My nation's fabric tears.
I cry for them, shoulders shudder convulsively.

It's dark, dark, dark. They hurt hurt hurt.
Pain for them, I feel such pain for them.
And, yet, friends exist and love does, too . . .
. . . honor and dignity can be found all around . . .
. . . recovery happens every day and babies are born to good people . . .
. . . and God has good reasons for everything that happens whether I understand or not.
Hope. Hope. Hope.
Hope lifts me, restores my soul, lightens the heaviness of my heart.
And the sun and the squirrels, the flowers and the leaves,
And honor and dignity and recovery and babies remind me that even though life is lived amidst the sinfulness of mankind and a cursed world, God sees fit to shed His grace on us.
His goodness.
His love.
Wednesday, September 26, 2018
Autumnal Stirrings
Autumn
Beautiful in Oregon
But . . .
. . . it is the promise of winter around the corner.
Winter in Oregon
Gray
Wet
Gray
Have I mentioned gray?
Depression
Lethargy
Sleepiness
This Oregon Seasonal Affective Disorder hits hardest after New Year's, though it begins to intensify much earlier. . .
And it's bad.
We who experience this loathsome sunless slow-motion suffocation dread it this year more than usual.
We don't know why.
But we do.
Looming forbidding haunting - can't shake it.
The sunshine this week is deceptive - but we'll take it.
We'll take it all in.
We'll throw our chore lists to the winds and soak up the sun, as much as we are able, steeping our minds in it in the hope that its memory will somehow see us through. . .
. . . the gray.
Beautiful in Oregon
But . . .
. . . it is the promise of winter around the corner.
Winter in Oregon
Gray
Wet
Gray
Have I mentioned gray?
Depression
Lethargy
Sleepiness
This Oregon Seasonal Affective Disorder hits hardest after New Year's, though it begins to intensify much earlier. . .
And it's bad.
We who experience this loathsome sunless slow-motion suffocation dread it this year more than usual.
We don't know why.
But we do.
Looming forbidding haunting - can't shake it.
The sunshine this week is deceptive - but we'll take it.
We'll take it all in.
We'll throw our chore lists to the winds and soak up the sun, as much as we are able, steeping our minds in it in the hope that its memory will somehow see us through. . .
. . . the gray.
Wednesday, September 12, 2018
Embrace the Red-Eye Day
The area under my eye is red and puffy from a soap allergy flare-up. It looks like I ran into a door.
I almost didn't go to my morning hair appointment today. Realizing just how much my hair needed a trim up, I went anyway. It needed to be done, ugly eye or no.
After I informed my hair stylist what the red puffiness was, that it didn't hurt, and could she please take care to keep sprays and soaps away, she was very chill. No big deal. We went on to talk about our yard projects, the U.S. Open Tennis Tournament, and how cute her little boy looked when stuffing fresh-picked blackberries into his greedy two-year old mouth under the summer sun.
My stylist, along with other staff and customers in the salon, were interested in interacting with me, not my eye. So encouraged was I by this friendliness that I decided to tackle the grocery shopping which I had felt shy to do because of my shiner.
Again, no one cared. Same smiles. Same courtesy. No staring. No one even seemed to notice.
How silly of me! How great that I fought my vanity and in turn discovered anew that this world is full of great people. We are human beings, after all, with bodies that do what they want when they want. This is understood.
Today's most welcomed reminder lifts my spirits. I hope the sharing lifts your as well.
There is much good in this old world, if we just have the eyes to see it.
I almost didn't go to my morning hair appointment today. Realizing just how much my hair needed a trim up, I went anyway. It needed to be done, ugly eye or no.
After I informed my hair stylist what the red puffiness was, that it didn't hurt, and could she please take care to keep sprays and soaps away, she was very chill. No big deal. We went on to talk about our yard projects, the U.S. Open Tennis Tournament, and how cute her little boy looked when stuffing fresh-picked blackberries into his greedy two-year old mouth under the summer sun.
My stylist, along with other staff and customers in the salon, were interested in interacting with me, not my eye. So encouraged was I by this friendliness that I decided to tackle the grocery shopping which I had felt shy to do because of my shiner.
Again, no one cared. Same smiles. Same courtesy. No staring. No one even seemed to notice.
How silly of me! How great that I fought my vanity and in turn discovered anew that this world is full of great people. We are human beings, after all, with bodies that do what they want when they want. This is understood.
Today's most welcomed reminder lifts my spirits. I hope the sharing lifts your as well.
There is much good in this old world, if we just have the eyes to see it.
Tuesday, August 28, 2018
Liberty Applies to the Commander in Chief, Too
John McCain was a war hero, a brave and loyal soldier.
He was a devoted senator, too.
America is a compassionate country that honors its heroes and hard-working politicians upon their deaths. This is good and proper.
The outpouring of affection and gratitude showed to Senator McCain comes voluntarily and from the heart. Also, from the heart, is the silence of those who found McCain less than stellar in his conduct toward them and others. Respectfulness is to keep silent rather than respond negatively. Our parents taught that if we don't have anything good to say, don't say anything at all.
I wonder if that is what our President had going through his mind in the first days after the news of McCain's passing?
You see, McCain was not kind to President Trump. Even in his final words, which were read after his passing, he takes potshots at the President's policies, policies applauded by half the country.
I heard Jenna Bush Hager, daughter of President and Mrs. George W. Bush, say she thinks it's fitting that the Maverick got the last word.
Did he? In a sense I suppose he did. He cannot hear responses anymore. His words, after spoken, linger for a moment and then are gone. No chance for rebuttal, not that anyone would want to.
But were his last words healing words, respectful of all the citizens of this country and its President? Interspersed with very moving and beautiful sentiments were snipes meant to demean the President, to throw egg on his face at a time when Trump couldn't tweet back because his belief in respecting the dead wouldn't allow it. Who is the better person here, the bully or the one who kept his mouth shut for a few days rather than blurt unkind - albeit probably accurate - sentiments? Well, let's not go there.
What is Trump supposed to say in light of the fact that McCain 'got the last word' with him? Seriously?
I think it took a lot of self-control for President Trump to keep his lips together and not say anything rude, which we all know he is quite capable of doing. Instead, he waited a bit, kept his cool. He chose the time he would say the presidential words the office demanded. What does it matter that they came a few days later? Who has the right to demand what he says, when he says it, how he says it?
It's called liberty. Liberty applies to the Commander in Chief, too.
For all those who vilify President Trump - for every single time he doesn't do or say exactly what they demand he do and say - I say grow up. He's free to pick and choose his own words and the timing of them, whether you like it or not.
That being said, I do wish the Senator's family comfort in the days, months, and years ahead. I pray that they'll have the strength the next days require, and that they'll feel the love the country has for them and for their father/dad, who was after all, a human being and a loved one first and foremost.
R.I.P. Senator McCain. You will long be remembered for your service.
He was a devoted senator, too.
America is a compassionate country that honors its heroes and hard-working politicians upon their deaths. This is good and proper.
The outpouring of affection and gratitude showed to Senator McCain comes voluntarily and from the heart. Also, from the heart, is the silence of those who found McCain less than stellar in his conduct toward them and others. Respectfulness is to keep silent rather than respond negatively. Our parents taught that if we don't have anything good to say, don't say anything at all.
I wonder if that is what our President had going through his mind in the first days after the news of McCain's passing?
You see, McCain was not kind to President Trump. Even in his final words, which were read after his passing, he takes potshots at the President's policies, policies applauded by half the country.
I heard Jenna Bush Hager, daughter of President and Mrs. George W. Bush, say she thinks it's fitting that the Maverick got the last word.
Did he? In a sense I suppose he did. He cannot hear responses anymore. His words, after spoken, linger for a moment and then are gone. No chance for rebuttal, not that anyone would want to.
But were his last words healing words, respectful of all the citizens of this country and its President? Interspersed with very moving and beautiful sentiments were snipes meant to demean the President, to throw egg on his face at a time when Trump couldn't tweet back because his belief in respecting the dead wouldn't allow it. Who is the better person here, the bully or the one who kept his mouth shut for a few days rather than blurt unkind - albeit probably accurate - sentiments? Well, let's not go there.
What is Trump supposed to say in light of the fact that McCain 'got the last word' with him? Seriously?
I think it took a lot of self-control for President Trump to keep his lips together and not say anything rude, which we all know he is quite capable of doing. Instead, he waited a bit, kept his cool. He chose the time he would say the presidential words the office demanded. What does it matter that they came a few days later? Who has the right to demand what he says, when he says it, how he says it?
It's called liberty. Liberty applies to the Commander in Chief, too.
For all those who vilify President Trump - for every single time he doesn't do or say exactly what they demand he do and say - I say grow up. He's free to pick and choose his own words and the timing of them, whether you like it or not.
That being said, I do wish the Senator's family comfort in the days, months, and years ahead. I pray that they'll have the strength the next days require, and that they'll feel the love the country has for them and for their father/dad, who was after all, a human being and a loved one first and foremost.
R.I.P. Senator McCain. You will long be remembered for your service.
Wednesday, August 22, 2018
Why Hate on Jordan Peterson?
Food for thought:
~~ as quoted in the WSJ, Caitlin Flanagan writing at the Atlantic's website, Aug. 9, 2018
"There are plenty of reasons for individual readers to dislike Jordan Peterson. . . . There are many legitimate reasons to disagree with him on a number of subjects, and many people of good will do. But there is no coherent reason for the left's obliterating and irrational hatred of Jordan Peterson. What, then, accounts for it?
It is because the left, while it currently seems ascendant in our houses of culture and art, has in fact entered its decadent late phase, and it is deeply vulnerable. The left is afraid not of Peterson, but of the ideas he promotes, which are completely inconsistent with identity politics of any kind."
~~ as quoted in the WSJ, Caitlin Flanagan writing at the Atlantic's website, Aug. 9, 2018
Definition of the Liberal Paradigm
An agreeing 'Yes!' burst from my lungs as I read the following excerpt. It's from a recent Wall Street Journal article entitled If America Is Divided, So Is Europe. In it the author, Tunku Varadarajan, recounts his interview with Mr. Ryszard Legutko, a professor of ancient philosophy who also represents Poland's conservative governing party at the European Parliament.
"The EU's elites, Mr. Legutko says, are unbending in their belief that 'one has to be liberal in order to be respectable, that whoever is not a liberal is either stupid or dangerous, or both.' Seconds later, he corrects himself: 'I mean the elites of the West, including those of the United States. Being liberal is the litmus test of political decency. This is today's orthodoxy. If you criticize it, or you're against it, you're disqualified.' The world has 'shrunk,' Mr. Legutko laments, 'and the liberal paradigm seems to be omnipresent.'
"What is that paradigm? 'A liberal is somebody who will come up to you and tell you, 'I will organize your life for you. I will tell you what kind of liberty you will have. And then you can do whatever you like.' His response - and Poland's as a sovereign entity - is unequivocal: 'Don't organize my liberty for me. Do not try to create a blueprint according to which an entire society must function.' That's why, he says, Poland is a 'a dissident member of the EU, and the primary reason why it has been attacked so much. Not because we did something outrageous, but because of who we refuse to be.'"
If you doubt that this is a prevailing paradigm here in the U.S., think about the recent remarks made by Santa Barbara Councilman Jason Dominguez.
No, Councilman Dominguez's is not an isolated point of view, it is a rampant, deep-seated, liberal one.
I concur with Mr. Legutko's response: "Do not organize my liberty for me. Do not try to create a blueprint according to which an entire society must function."
I sometimes wonder if Patrick Henry were to speak his sentiments today, what would be the outcome? Liberty?
Frightening.
*July 7-8, 2018, Weekend Edition Wall Street Journal
"The EU's elites, Mr. Legutko says, are unbending in their belief that 'one has to be liberal in order to be respectable, that whoever is not a liberal is either stupid or dangerous, or both.' Seconds later, he corrects himself: 'I mean the elites of the West, including those of the United States. Being liberal is the litmus test of political decency. This is today's orthodoxy. If you criticize it, or you're against it, you're disqualified.' The world has 'shrunk,' Mr. Legutko laments, 'and the liberal paradigm seems to be omnipresent.'
"What is that paradigm? 'A liberal is somebody who will come up to you and tell you, 'I will organize your life for you. I will tell you what kind of liberty you will have. And then you can do whatever you like.' His response - and Poland's as a sovereign entity - is unequivocal: 'Don't organize my liberty for me. Do not try to create a blueprint according to which an entire society must function.' That's why, he says, Poland is a 'a dissident member of the EU, and the primary reason why it has been attacked so much. Not because we did something outrageous, but because of who we refuse to be.'"
If you doubt that this is a prevailing paradigm here in the U.S., think about the recent remarks made by Santa Barbara Councilman Jason Dominguez.
Oh dear.“Unfortunately, common sense is just not common. We have to regulate every aspect of people’s lives.”
No, Councilman Dominguez's is not an isolated point of view, it is a rampant, deep-seated, liberal one.
I concur with Mr. Legutko's response: "Do not organize my liberty for me. Do not try to create a blueprint according to which an entire society must function."
I sometimes wonder if Patrick Henry were to speak his sentiments today, what would be the outcome? Liberty?
"What is it that gentlemen wish? What would they have? Is life so dear, or peace so sweet, as to be purchased at the price of chains and slavery? Forbid it, Almighty God! I know not what course others may take; but as for me, give me liberty or give me death!"I encourage you to click on the link above (the word 'sentiments'). Read Henry's entire speech. It's not long. You may see similarities between 18th century British and 21st century liberals.
Frightening.
*July 7-8, 2018, Weekend Edition Wall Street Journal
Thursday, August 09, 2018
Summer Heart
Since my husband and I moved away from where my parents lived, the season we spent the most time with them was summer.
Warmly welcoming each of us to the vast playground that was their country estate - The Hill - Mom and Dad hand cranked homemade ice cream, Dad barbecued tasty meats on his ancient barbecue, he cut juicy watermelons into drippy wedges - the rinds of which were gleefully thrown off the deck for cattle and deer - and Mom kept the pool crystal clear and clean, her bathing cap always close at hand.
Family gathered from far and wide to spend an invigorating and relaxing weekend together goofing off, enjoying scrumptious food, and telling stories.
The kids rode motorcycles, gathered chicken eggs from the henhouse, fed Dad's wild turkeys, played pool, shot guns, swam, played with cousins, and picked fat, deep purple blackberries.
I can still hear the unrestrained laughter, the croaking of frogs, and chirping of crickets. I smell roses and irises, taste potluck offerings delivered to the kitchen with cheer by each family, see bats swooping in the twilight sky.
I feel the thrill of sliding or diving or jumping into the huge pool, recollect the energy in my kids' little bodies as I teach them to swim and to see and to listen to life in the country.
The summer air smelled of crispy dry pasture grasses and hot evergreen trees, freshly watered verdant lawn, and sometimes the promise of a storm. Electrical storms, with their sticky humidity, frequent in the hot days of July and August, brought with them excitement in noise and flashes, contentment in the delicious warm rain which relaxed already smiling faces.
Underfoot crunchy pine needles offered up friendly seasonal scents, while hot sidewalks caused barefeet to quickly hop, skip, and jump onto damp lawn.
Summer on The Hill was a sensory feast! Memories linger, I hope as long as I live, comforting and encouraging me.
What a lovely thing to recall the goodness of time spent with my parents.
I ache for them, but more than that I am grateful that they were, indeed, mine.

Family gathered from far and wide to spend an invigorating and relaxing weekend together goofing off, enjoying scrumptious food, and telling stories.
The kids rode motorcycles, gathered chicken eggs from the henhouse, fed Dad's wild turkeys, played pool, shot guns, swam, played with cousins, and picked fat, deep purple blackberries.
I can still hear the unrestrained laughter, the croaking of frogs, and chirping of crickets. I smell roses and irises, taste potluck offerings delivered to the kitchen with cheer by each family, see bats swooping in the twilight sky.
I feel the thrill of sliding or diving or jumping into the huge pool, recollect the energy in my kids' little bodies as I teach them to swim and to see and to listen to life in the country.
The summer air smelled of crispy dry pasture grasses and hot evergreen trees, freshly watered verdant lawn, and sometimes the promise of a storm. Electrical storms, with their sticky humidity, frequent in the hot days of July and August, brought with them excitement in noise and flashes, contentment in the delicious warm rain which relaxed already smiling faces.
Underfoot crunchy pine needles offered up friendly seasonal scents, while hot sidewalks caused barefeet to quickly hop, skip, and jump onto damp lawn.
Summer on The Hill was a sensory feast! Memories linger, I hope as long as I live, comforting and encouraging me.
What a lovely thing to recall the goodness of time spent with my parents.
I ache for them, but more than that I am grateful that they were, indeed, mine.
Tuesday, July 24, 2018
Vanquish the Darkness
It takes more courage to dig deep into the abyss of one's own soul than it takes for a soldier to fight on the battlefield. ~~ William Butler Yeats
How many people really understand what Yeats is saying here, I wonder. Do I fully understand his meaning? I think so.
There is dark stuff in the abyss of every soul on Earth. Dark, nasty stuff. To face it head-on is frightening.
A wise person will face the abyss, though, piece by piece, horror by horror. If light isn't shed on the darkness, the evil unchecked alters us, holds us in its grip. We cannot progress into the Goodness that we desire until we address the darkness in battle and vanquish as much as we can.
God reveals our darkness to us through life situations. We react in ways that seem horrible to us, surprising ourselves with our ugliness. A proper response is to thank God for the hard moments. Then, evaluate evaluate evaluate.
Bravery is so necessary.
On the other side of each victory is the strength and bravery to go in again, win a bit more territory for Goodness, snatch it away from darkness.
Only an evaluated life is worth living.
Tuesday, July 17, 2018
Swimming with Mom
Memories of ten-year old me at the lake with my dear mother ache my heart today.
I miss her most in the summer, particularly when I am swimming.
Yet, my heart shines in joy - through the ache - at my ebullient memories.
I hope there is swimming in Heaven. I want to swim beside my mom again.
Wednesday, April 04, 2018
Long Live the Printed Page!
"Recent scientific studies have shown that holding a book and reading it creates a richer experience for the brain than reading something that is online. So, in addition to reading, we should read printed, physical books. For in addition to writing being the greatest invention in human history, the book may be the greatest device ever invented." ~~~Byron TullyA certain satisfaction puffed this bibliophile's mind when I learned that the sales of e-books are declining while the sales of physical books are increasing.
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Trinity College in Dublin - a magical place |
Aside from my obvious sentimentality, I have pragmatic reasons for preferring a printed book over an e-book. Science is proclaiming that it can be hard to absorb an e-book. The chronology of a story can be less fixed in the reader's mind, especially younger readers. More is remembered about a text's timeline if it is read in print as opposed to on a device.
Studying is more efficient with the printed book as bookmarking, highlighting, and flipping forward and backward are easier, thus saving time and helping the reader's mind stay focused on content.
Also, e-books tire one's eyes and brain as they require a higher cognitive workload due to the dual-task of reading while using a computer.
And finally, most of us have either experienced or read about the fact that looking at a computer screen before bed contributes not only to disrupted sleep patterns but to increased tiredness the following day.
Granted, there is room in this world for both types of books. However, let's make it perfectly clear, the e-book has not dethroned the printed book.
Long live the printed book!
Saturday, March 31, 2018
Death, Where is Your Sting?
He was in His early thirties.
Just a kid, by today's standards.
Yet, Jesus lived a sinless life, died a gruesome death, and most importantly, awakened to eternal life.
I imagine Jesus stirring to consciousness there on that cold slab. Remember, He was a young man, a human being like the rest of us. Have you ever awakened from a nightmare only to react like Ebenezer Scrooge, rejoicing to be alive? Jesus must have been rejoicing, too. His sacrifice was accepted by God! He conquered death! He knew full well what, in His obedience, He had done not only for Himself, but for those who believe in Him, those who are drawn to the Goodness of God.
The Prince of Peace sat up, and unwound the grave clothes from His body. Then, Jesus folded the small facial cloth and set it on the slab. An interesting note about that action, the folding of the facial cloth, is that in Hebrew custom, when a master was finished with his meal, he'd leave his napkin wadded up on his plate to signal his servant that he was finished eating and would be leaving the table. If the master left a folded napkin at his place, it meant he would return, so please, servant, leave his plate and silverware on the table. Was Jesus, in folding that piece of cloth, leaving a signal that He'd be returning for us? Perhaps. At last, the Messiah walked out of the dark tomb of a rich man into the fresh air of Jerusalem.
Think of it. Just think of His experience.
Death could not keep Him. He rose victorious over it. He is alive today.
Because He lives, we have the choice to follow Him to another Age, which we call Heaven. It is there He prepares a place for us so that where He is, we may be also. He waits for us, his younger brothers and sisters. It is glorious, and so humbling.
To you, gentle reader, I wish an Easter Observation full of love, joy, meaning, refreshment, and the realization that Easter marks the most Important Event in World History. The resurrection of Jesus.
I hope He has your attention...and your love.
Happy Easter!
Just a kid, by today's standards.
Yet, Jesus lived a sinless life, died a gruesome death, and most importantly, awakened to eternal life.

The Prince of Peace sat up, and unwound the grave clothes from His body. Then, Jesus folded the small facial cloth and set it on the slab. An interesting note about that action, the folding of the facial cloth, is that in Hebrew custom, when a master was finished with his meal, he'd leave his napkin wadded up on his plate to signal his servant that he was finished eating and would be leaving the table. If the master left a folded napkin at his place, it meant he would return, so please, servant, leave his plate and silverware on the table. Was Jesus, in folding that piece of cloth, leaving a signal that He'd be returning for us? Perhaps. At last, the Messiah walked out of the dark tomb of a rich man into the fresh air of Jerusalem.
Think of it. Just think of His experience.
Death could not keep Him. He rose victorious over it. He is alive today.
Because He lives, we have the choice to follow Him to another Age, which we call Heaven. It is there He prepares a place for us so that where He is, we may be also. He waits for us, his younger brothers and sisters. It is glorious, and so humbling.
To you, gentle reader, I wish an Easter Observation full of love, joy, meaning, refreshment, and the realization that Easter marks the most Important Event in World History. The resurrection of Jesus.
I hope He has your attention...and your love.
Happy Easter!
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